theINNERpanda
Index your inner animal
soooo good . corpointdeux: Grimes Article. NME.
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re . des | ire | troy desire and destroy . the words . begin the same . the archaic root for desire is .. to feel the loss of . and is that not the most exact representation of what destroys me ? this pain . insufferable . undeniable . so ferocious . so unforgiving . so hateful and destructive . tearing me apart internally . physically . emotionally . mentally . spiritually . i loathe that i feel it . and i feel it . even when i deny , avoid , ignore , overwrite it . it burns white-hot . rotting me . diseased and trapped within it . desiring my own destruction ? destroying the desire accomplishes the same . destruction is the finality either way . so then ,  my completion is my destruction . my liberation is my termination . my end is my liberty . all that every second i ache to be free from . until all flesh has left my hands i’ll grasp . until all strength has left my lungs i’ll groan . until my eyes pour blood i’ll weep . for in that moment . when your hand reached out .  the only thing i’ve coveted . i crave .  this … for which i have such gluttony the ravenous appetite could never be fed . when i had it before me , my tongue would not permit even a taste . not one quenching drop to savor . i rejected you .   if i could scream my disgust my throat would hemorrhage . regret flows through me so thoroughly it seeps from my pores . indeed , this must be why my sink gleams crimson . i am dissolving . desire has destroyed me . if only my destruction would hasten . for i am indulging in this gruesome torture . delight is my company as i suffocate . my corruption is absolute . (Photo by innerpanda)
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