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desire and destroy .

the words . begin the same .

the archaic root for desire is .. to feel the loss of .

and is that not the most exact representation of what destroys me ?

this pain . insufferable . undeniable .

so ferocious . so unforgiving . so hateful and destructive .

tearing me apart internally . physically . emotionally . mentally . spiritually .

i loathe that i feel it . and i feel it . even when i deny , avoid , ignore , overwrite it .

it burns white-hot .

rotting me . diseased and trapped within it .

desiring my own destruction ? destroying the desire accomplishes the same .

destruction is the finality either way .

so then ,  my completion is my destruction . my liberation is my termination .

my end is my liberty .

all that every second i ache to be free from .

until all flesh has left my hands i’ll grasp .

until all strength has left my lungs i’ll groan .

until my eyes pour blood i’ll weep .

for in that moment . when your hand reached out . 

the only thing i’ve coveted . i crave . 

this … for which i have such gluttony the ravenous appetite could never be fed .

when i had it before me , my tongue would not permit even a taste .

not one quenching drop to savor .

i rejected you .  

if i could scream my disgust my throat would hemorrhage .

regret flows through me so thoroughly it seeps from my pores .

indeed , this must be why my sink gleams crimson .

i am dissolving .

desire has destroyed me .

if only my destruction would hasten .

for i am indulging in this gruesome torture .

delight is my company as i suffocate .

my corruption is absolute .

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